my new tough

i hate myself sometimes for reacting in ways that i can't control

i keep finding myself lost

losing myself deep in my thoughts

and i find myself crying

and fucking hate this and i beat myself up about it

i still can't get over my grandad passing away

i completely understand that, that's how life rolls

i am totally a rational person

but what frustrates me is why can't i control myself to calm myself

i hate lingering on a subject

and why do i cry in moments?

i don't understand this.

not my words

Never ceases to amaze how little the staff in designer stores know about the things they sell. So much attitude, so little knowledge.




take note mutha fuckers!!

i hate shopping because of this

nothing offends me more than rudeness


eugh.

No diggedy

starting to really hate Alexander Wang..

Diggin' Simone Rocha


i really dig it

her last collection

Yum.

that metal stainless steel collar..

Yum.



meh


fashion

phashun

smashun




*note

i did a styled shoot and ranted on about her collection to a friend
then whadya know, my friend pulled her collection for shoot for Volt magazine

result!


Ye

Ye



Brap

food eats

Some old & new eats for this year im obsessing over


Hazelnut Butter

Almond Butter

marmalade & toast

brioche

grapefruit




strange

i am recently being kind to myself

allowing myself limitless sweet stuff

i keep finishing bags of jelly babies (wtf i hate haribos)

hot chocolates, olvatines & horlicks

i don't understand


is it my body telling me to find artificial ways to keep myself happy

because i am simply feeling blue all the time



hhmm

deep

ill

i give up

eugh


moan & groan


sooooooooo ill

when will it ever end

and the weather is being relentless on my health




i can't remember what it's like to be normal

i feel so rubbish

i feel like a vegetable

i am gonna winge till the cows come home


eughhhhhhhhh

squirm

holy smoke




i can't be helped

this dark secret of mine


i really dig korean pop

!!!


why is this happening


its got me saying

yeah

yeah

yeah

tae yang styles obvz









fuck me

whats happening

Goal

i can't drive

i can't swim


someone said

wow that's well dangerous if you don't know how to swim




got me thinking

going to learn how to drive for this year


at least i could attempt to drive myself out of a flood if worse comes to worst

as if i'm going to try and swim in dirty flood water


gross