can't have

i want the one i can't have

well almost

nearly had a fatal heart attack when le itunes refused to play a bit of smiths to cure my fix

i want something i can't have

something i won't admit to

i don't think i can voice it out because i'm scared of rejection

having the 'door slammed shut in my face'

feeling not wanted is my greatest fear

and if they knew how i really felt

i'll never go for it so i will never know the unknown

i guess i don't like being in a position where i am vulnerable

or admitting defeat

stubborn cunt