its raining really heavily outside and it's way into the late 3am zone and its blustering so hard you feel like the roof is going to be ripped right off. I like the sound how it makes you feel vulnerable but safe at the same time.
The weather is fueling my mood. Dark, miserable, grey and frowning. I'm really unhappy at the moment and just can't define why. Its just because.
I have so much work to do, I haven't started. I want to, but I just can't do it. I feel really depressed, angry and want everything else other than what I already have. To be happy. Nearly said 'fucking' happy but that makes me sound ungrateful and a bit of a prick.