Reluctance

ok

i speak softly about this

i think i'm missing him

i don't want to

and hating myself as i convince myself that to believe it and follow through

instead

i fold

i really truly miss him

i've even analysed all the bad points

thinking about that bad hair cut

his bad mood swings

his tubby cute belly

how he didn't give the best hugs

and didn't kiss me enough

the last point should be the deal breaker

and i still miss him

i miss him so much

and he will never know