thoughts

oh no

just when i got my sleeping back on track

i decide to take 2 naps in one day and now i can't sleep

me and my greedy self

i hate this

because it leaves me time to think about things i would rather not

especially this one..

i really miss someone


i hate being single

I hate every single thing about it

and especially in London where the people are not so great and the hope is not there

i know me being patient has now overridden to non existence to where I have forgotten what it's like to wait and wonder and lust

i just don't expect anymore

more pessimistic

don't notice whats going on

and kind feeling pathetic and run down with low self esteem

i've really lost my spark